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Symptoms of Withdrawal: A Memoir of Snapshots and Redemption Kindle Edition

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At last, the first memoir from a Kennedy family member—an inspirational, candid, and explosive personal story sure to be one of the most sensational bestsellers of the year

Christopher Kennedy Lawson was born to enormous privilege. But with fame, money, and power came tragedy and heartbreak. In this clear-eyed, sensitive, and compulsively readable autobiography, he breaks his family’s long-held silence to a rare glimpse into the exclusive worlds of both Washington politicos and the Hollywood elite during the socially turbulent 1960s and 1970s.

As the first born child of famed Rat Pack actor, Peter Lawford, and John F. Kennedy’s sister, Patricia, Christopher Lawford was raised in Malibu and Martha’s Vineyard with movie stars and presidents as close family members and friends. But this little boy who learned the twist thanks to private lessons from Marilyn Monroe would grow up to become a spoiled adolescent with a near-fatal jones for heroin and alcohol. With deep sincerity, Kennedy sets the record straight, sharing many never-before-told stories about the good, the bad, and the ugly in his life, including the deaths of his uncles, his parents’ divorce and its effect, his hard-fought struggle to overcome addiction, his long-lasting sobriety, his acting career, and his relationships with his famous cousins and his own children. Surprisingly frank, Kennedy pulls no punches as he tells us what it’s really like to be a member of America’s first family.

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[Signature]Reviewed by Sara NelsonPity the poor shelver who has to decide where to put this book. Does it go with the wall full of Kennedyana, the tell-alls and critiques of the family America loves to hate and hates to love? Or does it go into the ever increasing "recovery" section of the memoir department, packed as it is with tales of debauchery, and finally, painful and hard-won sobriety?Because this offering, by the 50-year-old nephew of President Kennedy, son of the late actor Peter Lawford, and cousin of the late American prince, JFK Jr. (how's that for a legacy to live with?), is both of those things, it is hard to categorize, and harder to resist. There's plenty of dish here, even if it is dish of the gentle, almost old-fashioned variety. (Lawford tells of being taught to do the twist by Marilyn Monroe; of spying, as a 10-year-old, on a former First Lady taking a bath, of partying with Kennedys and Lennons and Jaggers.) But it is also a palpably painful and moving rendition of bad behavior with women and money and drugs, and 20 years of staying sober.If you've read any recovery lit, you already know the drill: the stories of lying and charming and messing up school, jobs and relationships. There's plenty of that, but in Lawford's case, the backdrop against which he misbehaved is in itself dramatic. He writes achingly of his relationship with his cousin David, RFK's son, with whom he regularly did drugs and who died in a Palm Beach hotel room in 1984. (Lawford broke with Kennedy family tradition and named his son for David.) When he arrives high at a family party, the photographic proof turns up in the newspaper—because it was a fundraiser for his uncle Teddy. If this were somebody with a less famous-for-carousing name, you might think he was just another self-dramatizing alcoholic; as it is, Lawford is clearly just recounting his life.Even so, he could come off as obnoxious—were it not for his frankness, humor and self-awareness. Lawford goes out of his way to own, as they say in recovery, his behavior, and while he acknowledges a family tendency, he blames no one but himself. He can also write knowingly and self-deprecatingly about his competitive relationships with his many cousins, his vanity as an actor (he has appeared in films including The Russia House and Mr. North, as well as many television programs but is, by his own admission, no Tom Cruise), and his tendency to refer to his many female conquests as "the most beautiful girl in the world."So where does this book belong? Does it matter? You don't have to care about Kennedys to find this a moving tale of self-discovery and redemption. Whatever else he may have been—son, nephew, cousin, etc.—Christopher Lawford shows himself here to be a writer of talent and grace. 32 pages of photos. (Oct.)Sara Nelson is the Editor-in-Chief of PW.
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From Booklist

Kennedys don't cry. And they don't write tell-all books. So this memoir breaks new ground, although much of the material about the Kennedy second generation has been covered elsewhere, especially in Peter Collier and David Horowitz's The Kennedys: An American Drama (1985). In any case, Lawford, son of actor Peter Lawford and Patricia Lawford, Rose and Joe's sixth child, uses the family primarily as a backdrop to his own drug-filled, angst-driven life. Like his father, Lawford is an actor, and while only a supporting player in so many phases of his life and career, he makes sure that here he has the starring role. Born to wealth and privilege, he freely admits he ran through the money and willingly accepted whatever the family name got him--which was plenty. After his parents' divorce (which removed his father from his life) and the death of his uncle Robert, Lawford, along with several of his male cousins, spiraled downward, with drugs, including heroin, ruling his life. Lawford says he's written this book on his own, and he's done a fine job of it, freely allowing himself to come across as the narcissist he was and in some ways still is, even as he earnestly offers inspirational nuggets he's found on his spiritual path. You know this memoir works when the pages absent Frank, Marilyn, Sammy, and Jackie are every bit as interesting as those where they're featured. Ilene Cooper
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Product details

  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B000FCKES6
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ HarperCollins e-books; Illustrated edition (October 13, 2009)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ October 13, 2009
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 2068 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Sticky notes ‏ : ‎ On Kindle Scribe
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 418 pages
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Reviewed in the United States on March 11, 2006
I think maybe some of the reviewer's here are being a little hard on Chris. I have never picked up a book especially about the Kennedy's, and saw it told like it is, or was. They tell things, but only to a point.... He told everything. He could have toned it down, or dressed it up, and he didn't. Hey, we bought the book, so he already had our money, and anything could have been in it. But he was honest, and revealing. I'm sure his extended family wasn't jumping for joy reading it. But he wrote it anyway. Yes he made a lot of money with it, but also it's probably a good tool for his recovery (that actually lasts a life time.) ..... I loved this book, and I thank him for being truthful, and honest. He needed to tell his story. He doesn't hold back. Also, I have a family member in recovery, and she is trying really hard...but after reading this book, I have even more info in which to help her. God bless you Chris....you did real good, and the book was fantastic. .Keep ever going...you're doing great.
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Reviewed in the United States on May 17, 2013
This is a very odd book indeed, as if it was written first from a child's point-of-view, a boyhood diary, and then rewritten or, more likely, ghost-written by a more savvy adult with an eye on the obvious market for such a confessional. Christopher Lawford, son of Kennedy daughter Pat and handsome English-born actor Peter, provides us with all the expected, always fascinating Camelot anecdotes of life in America's royal family, but never once attempts to give us a full psychological portrait of any of the key participants in his life, including, sadly, his own mother and father. They are as distant to us as they were to him.

Despite all the toys and attention afforded him as a Kennedy, no one seems to truly care for him or, for that matter, for anyone else, unless of course they are direct blood members of the first family. Those who have married into the clan are all willing participants in some sort of game or pageant, whose purpose is to celebrate the family name, and to bring it glory. The rules are clear, Grandpa Joe has set them and Grandma Rose is there (or occasion) to remind the players about them, and even when tragedy hits, as it famously does, they all somehow instantly know what the next act is and how to play their parts perfectly.

And yet, at least in the beginning chapters, essential pieces of the saga we know seem to be missing. When the royal court is introduced, and Prince Jack the prominent player, Chris never once mentions ever seeing Jackie--is it possible that she never came to California, or that he never saw her when the family went back east?--and when he first deals with the dramatic moment of his mother's decision to leave his actor father, we are never told why she does what she does.

It's understandable that a child, the child who was Christopher, would not comprehend the reason, but the author of this book was an adult when he wrote it. Why is it then that at first the grownup telling us a story cannot confront his father's otherwise legendary womanizing and pimping for the Kennedy brothers? This blindness to reality adds a strange and totally unexpected Kafkaesque tone to the narrative, intended or not. In the beginning, we are only permitted to see the world as a child would, and yet, as all the world knows, the Kennedy saga is no children's story.

As the book progresses, we begin to understand why it is told in such an odd fashion. This is meant to be a tale of redemption, and we are asked to understand as Chris understands. Slowly. In the very last chapter, he leaves us with some aphorisms about life and its meaning, one of which is "Never believe the myth." How much more powerful this book would be if he had told us what that myth really was.
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Reviewed in the United States on February 24, 2024
I really enjoyed reading this, and wish I could have met Christopher before his untimely death. Truly has inspired me.
Reviewed in the United States on October 10, 2005
The book is okay, if repetitious, and certainly engaging enough as Lawford seems to vacillate between considering himself one hot dude and a loser who is a "second string Kennedy." But what bothers me the most about this book is the egregious number of spelling errors and the above-mentioned repetition. About the only name he spells right is his own! Further, he spells some names variously, e.g. "Davie" and "Davy" on the same page. His own grandmother isn't immune: Is it "May" or "Mae," Chris? I certainly hope someone takes a blue pencil to this book before it's issued in paperback; such sloppiness is just unacceptable.
Special apology to the late Jack "Lemon" [sic], as well as Jimmy Van "Husen," and Dominick "Dunn." (Well, Lawford doesn't have much use for Dunne, so maybe that one is intentional.)

In its favor, the book is absorbing; however, though it purports to be about Chris Lawford and his journey through the hell of addiction and toward the "sunlit" days of sobriety, the fact remains that there is still plenty of "Kennedyiana" and Hollywood gossip in which Peter Lawford comes off poorly. One seems to be asked to admire Christopher for loving his father anyway, and granted, that cannot have been easy to do. The inescapable fact remains that if Chris were the son of Peter Lawford--a second-rate, all-but-forgotten actor and world-class substance abuser--and "Patricia Smith," there would have been no interest in this book. But I'm sure he knows that, and thanks to his hardwon sobriety, no doubt accepts it, as well.

One final note to the author: Chris, a lot of men who weren't breast fed get on with women just fine. Get over it!
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Reviewed in the United States on July 21, 2017
For a tell all book about Ameica's "royal" family or clan, young Lawford seems to have come to an adult relation with reality and his self identity perhaps better than either of his parents. Enough introspection and clan family gossip to satisfy the simple readers, but enough explanation of quirks and "warts and all" bits about the family to explain growing up in this family. Almost apologizing for the money and growing up time wasted on the drugs and profligate lifestyle, somehow finding a life style much more productive and meaningful and satisfying. Well written, meaningful, enlightening, very little self pity, an acceptance of a life in the spotlight and making peace with life, in spite of all the excess.

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Claudia
5.0 out of 5 stars Ótimo livro
Reviewed in Brazil on March 22, 2021
Muito bom! Super interessante e bem escrito.
Das große Ohr
5.0 out of 5 stars Das Buch gibt dem Leser eine tiefe Einsicht in die Kennedy-Familienstruktur
Reviewed in Germany on April 8, 2022
Christopher Kennedy Lawford hat das Buch selbst geschrieben, was schon besonders erwähnt werden muss in Anbetracht der vielen für Promis aktiven Ghostwriters. Seine Geschichte berührt, weil er selbstkritisch und humorvoll damit umgeht. Seine Drogenabhängigkeit über Jahrzehnte wühlte mich als Leserin auf, genauso wie die vielen Schicksalsschläge der Familie Kennedy. Ein liebenswerter Mann, auch seine sehr privaten Bilder sind besonders. Ich habe davor eine Biographie über seinen Vater Peter Lawford von dessen letzter Ehefrau gelesen und war deshalb bestens eingestimmt. Sehr traurig dass Christopher schon so früh verstorben ist, ausgerechnet im Yogastudio. Wahrscheinlich war sein Körper durch jahrzehntelangen Missbrauchs von Drogen und Alkohol geschwächt.
Mary McAndrew
1.0 out of 5 stars sooo disappointed
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on February 21, 2013
about 60pages missing,chapter 21 to 26 are in there twice.book is a total mess.would probably have been an ok book otherwise.
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