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Leaving Dirty Jersey: A Crystal Meth Memoir Kindle Edition
At the age of eighteen, after one too many run-ins with the cops for drug possession, he left his upper-middle-class home in Princeton, New Jersey, for a stint at a rehab facility in Riverside, California. Instead of getting clean, he spent his year there shooting crystal meth and living as a petty criminal among not-so-petty ones until a near psychotic episode (among other things) convinced him to clean up.
In stark prose infused with heartbreaking insight, wicked humor, and complete veracity, Salant provides graphic descriptions of life on crystal meth -- the incredible sex drive, the paranoia, the cravings. He details the slang, the scams, and the psychoses, and weaves them into a narrative that is breathtakingly honest and authentic. Salant grapples with his attraction to the thuggish life, eschewing easy answers -- his parents, both therapists, were loving and supportive, and his family's subtle dysfunctions typical of almost any American family.
Exploring the allure and effects of the least understood drug of our time, Leaving Dirty Jersey is that rarity among memoirs -- a compulsively readable, superbly told story that is shocking precisely because it could happen to almost anyone.
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherGallery Books
- Publication dateMay 8, 2007
- File size1032 KB
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"Normally I hate to tell anyone what to do, or what to think, or read. But I honestly believe every parent should read this book. And every teenager on the verge of a drug trip should read it. And everyone else, too. It's that good, that important." -- Dava Sobel, author of Longitude
"Salant makes his mark by telling his tale plainly and well." -- New York Times Book Review
"Salant's story offers an unrelentingly bleak account of one man's encounter with America's crystal meth culture." -- Publishers Weekly
"If prose were a mind-altering substance, James Salant would be your neighbourhood pusher. Lord knows, the man will make an addict of you." -- Koren Zailckas, New York Times bestselling author of Smashed: Story of a Drunken Girlhood
"Salant gives us a searing, sordid account of his 19th year, spent shooting and smoking meth and heroin in California...he nails the hellish tedium and despair of the addict. His memoir is a dirty bomb lobbed from the trenches of crank addiction." -- Salon.com
"Salant gives us a searing, sordid account of his 19th year, spent shooting and smoking meth and heroin in California...he nails the hellish tedium and despair of the addict. His memoir is a dirty bomb lobbed from the trenches of crank addiction." -- Salon.com
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AN ACID-FRIENDLY ATMOSPHERE
The line of evergreens in front of the Princeton Shopping Center was bristling and swaying in the wind, morphing and swirling and streaking the sky neon green, and even tripping on acid I was trying to walk like a tough guy. Swinging my feet slightly to the side in a kind of waddle, I led each step with a shoulder as if wading through water. For once, though, I wasn't scowling. I was happy and smiling, having cut school with two friends. We'd dropped the acid and sniffed some heroin and watched the end of Casino. Now we were on our way to the shopping center for pizza, and one of the trees was whispering to me. The words sounded familiar. When I realized that the tree was quoting Casino, I laughed, and then sunlight flickered across the grass -- dancing flames of iridescence -- and I began to burst with a this-is-special feeling. It was a gorgeous day, and nature was putting on a light show for me. Then the cops pulled up.
As soon as they told us to stop and stand over there, the sun seemed too bright: My eyes began to water and I couldn't stop blinking. In my pocket were a bag of pot and eight paper hits of acid. I fidgeted while one of the cops -- a short, clean-shaven officer with a nasal voice -- explained that he'd just received a call about three guys trying car-door handles in the parking lot we'd just passed through.
My friends, who were black, screamed racial profiling: "You know ain't nobody call. You just wanna harass a bitch." I needed a different strategy, but I couldn't come up with anything better than shaking my head in disbelief, looking nervous and high. Another squad car pulled up.
Afterward, my friends and I would complain about how unfair the whole thing was: We actually hadn't been trying car-door handles, so in our minds it was all bigotry and harassment. It never occurred to us that we looked exactly like the type of people who do try car-door handles and that, in fact, on any drug but acid we were those people.
"Come on over here," said a gray-haired, mustachioed detective in a dark suit, standing by his car. He was talking to me. Trudging over, I stared at the ground and hoped that I was walking normally. "Why don't you empty your pockets for me," he said, "and put everything on the hood, over here."
"You don't have the right to search my pockets," I said.
"Yes, I do." He laughed. And that was that. I placed cash, keys, little scraps of paper -- everything that wasn't illegal -- on the hood of his car. Then he told me to turn my pockets inside out.
"No," I mumbled.
"No?" he said, raising his eyebrows.
The local paper said that a seventeen-year-old high school senior darted (or maybe it was dashed) down the street in an attempt to escape, but I'm less sure of what I was trying to do. I didn't even know that I was going to run until I'd started, and then, once the boots were thudding and the cops were shouting, it just naturally popped into my head, as if I'd undergone some junkie training program, that I should eat the acid -- destroy the evidence.
It is impossible, though, to open a sealed baggy while running from the cops on a head full of acid. It also didn't help that my boots, which were fashionably untied, began to come off. When I tried to kick them off altogether so I could run in my socks, my fashionably baggy jeans fell to my knees. Stumbling, then running like a demented penguin, I shoved the closed baggy into my mouth and started to chew. I had no chance of swallowing -- my mouth was parched -- but I hoped that the baggy would open in my mouth so I could eat the remaining tabs. It didn't.
The mustachioed detective soon caught up and struck me on the back of the neck, sending me flying through the air. I landed hard, tumbling on the grass, and in another second they were on me, flipping me on my stomach, putting a knee on my back, cuffing me, turning out my pockets, and finding the pot. Finally they pulled me up to my knees.
"Oh, what's this?" said one of the cops, holding the bag of acid, which had fallen out of my mouth. "A little of the LSD, huh?"
"That was about the stupidest damn thing you could have done!" yelled the detective who'd run me down.
"Now, Jim," said another cop. We already knew each other -- Officer Summers. He took off his glasses and stooped in front of me with his hands on his thighs. "What did you swallow? I am not fucking around, Jim! What did you swallow?"
"Nothing," I mumbled. "You already got it."
Later, the story to my friends was that I told him to go fuck himself.
Officer Summers shook his head and walked away, leaving me kneeling in my boxers, dirt and grass clinging to my legs. In a few minutes two of the cops hoisted me to my feet and yanked my jeans up roughly. The jeans became tangled with my boxers and didn't quite make it over my hips.
"What's happening now?" I asked another detective, a woman who was standing at the edge of a huddle watching me as the other cops gave each other orders and talked into their radios.
"We're waiting for the ambulance," she said.
"For what?" I said. "I don't want an ambulance. I'm fine."
I was standing in my damp socks, cuffed, a cool breeze blowing across the top of my butt.
"I wish I could believe you."
"But I really didn't eat anything," I said. "I mean, if that's what you think. You saw me try to swallow something, but that fell out of my mouth. You got that."
"You mean the LSD," she said.
"Yeah," I said. "That was everything."
I wanted to ask one of the cops to fix my pants.
"And the pot," said the mustachioed detective.
"Yeah, sure, fine," I said. "But that's it. I didn't eat any stash."
"How do we know that?" the detective snapped. "Look at the size of your pupils."
I wondered if I should tell them that I was on acid. Tell THEM that I'm on LSD, that I'm on SDL...that I'm nearing hell? Tell them a fucking thing...
The ambulance arrived.
"Take any drugs today, son?" an EMT asked me once I was cuffed inside.
"Nope."
"Nothing at all?"
"Well, I smoked a little marijuana earlier."
"That's it?" he said, shining a flashlight in my eyes. "You're sure?"
"Yup."
At the ER, a place I'd never been, the detective walked me from the ambulance to a plain room, empty except for a chair in the center, to which he cuffed me. Then he left me, and a young doctor in a white smock came in with a clipboard and smiled at me good-naturedly.
"So how are you doing?" he said.
"I've been better." I laughed.
"I can imagine," he said. "Hell, I hope you've been better than this."
"Like an hour ago I was much better than this."
He read his clipboard and shined a flashlight in my eyes.
"They just came in and messed your day up, huh."
"Yeah, pretty much."
"I hate it when that happens."
"You have no idea." I laughed again. "So what's happening now?"
"Well, we have to take some blood. Between you and them I have no idea what's happening -- I just know I have to take some blood and make sure you're okay. Now, what's wrong? You don't look too happy about that."
At seventeen I hadn't started shooting drugs yet, and I was terrified of needles.
"Why do you have to take my blood?"
"To make sure you don't...well, die. They're saying you might have eaten something. Now, you're saying you didn't, but we still have to make sure. Are you scared of needles?"
"Very," I said. "But look, I did eat something -- four hits of acid around noon. That's why my eyes are dilated. I really didn't eat anything when I ran."
"So you're high on LSD right now? Wow. What a day. Look, I'm sorry, but we have to run the tests either way now that you've been admitted. It's procedure. You'll be okay -- the nurses are very good."
I nodded, and on his way out the doctor looked back and smiled and pointed at me and said, "You're gonna be all right." The detective popped in and asked me for my parents' phone number, which at that point I was happy to give. He disappeared for a few minutes, then returned, unlocked the cuffs, and told me to follow him to the bathroom to take a urine test.
"Instead of the blood test?" I asked hopefully.
"Nope. Gotta do 'em both. And Mom and Dad are on their way."
In the past whenever I took acid, I always made sure to be in an acid-friendly atmosphere: a friend's house, or the woods, or any safe place where I could philosophize and giggle, silly with what I considered a deeper appreciation for nature and beauty. Standing in that hospital bathroom, dick-in-cup, with a detective behind me demanding my urine, I was in the least acid-friendly atmosphere I've ever tripped in. Even worse, I'd sniffed some heroin a few hours earlier, so I couldn't piss: I pushed and groaned and looked helplessly over my shoulder at the detective. In response he described the procedure that would be used to force me to urinate if I couldn't do it myself. When he said "urethra," I managed to squeeze out a few drops.
At some point in between the piss and blood my parents arrived at the hospital, looking solemn and distressed as their faces generated tiny bubbles of reflected fluorescent light. They moved slowly toward me, shifting and taking on a radioactive glow -- just for a second, and then their oversized earlobes began to vibrate.
"Are you still...high?" asked my dad, peering at me as if I were the one whose head was melting.
"Yes."
"Having a good time?" asked my mom.
Five foot five and slender with bluish-gray eyes and platinum hair, she stared at me with her lips pressed tightly together, fuming. But she quickly softened. I was near tears, terrified about giving blood. Even the detective began to feel sorry for me, and when the nurse came in wheeling a cart with tubes for my blood, he tried to distract me from the IV. He came over and stood next to me with this huge, creepy smile, while the nurse tied my arm and searched for a vein.
"Hey," he said jovially, snapping his fingers...
Product details
- ASIN : B000QCTNGO
- Publisher : Gallery Books (May 8, 2007)
- Publication date : May 8, 2007
- Language : English
- File size : 1032 KB
- Text-to-Speech : Enabled
- Screen Reader : Supported
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- Sticky notes : On Kindle Scribe
- Print length : 362 pages
- Best Sellers Rank: #1,004,305 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
- #331 in Drug Dependency & Recovery (Kindle Store)
- #439 in Mid Atlantic U.S. Biographies
- #1,114 in Drug Dependency & Recovery (Books)
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It's precisely the relative absence of shock-for-shock's sake that made this book such a satisfying read. As described by Salant, a drug addict's world isn't exciting; it's just sordid (which Salant acknlowedges in recounting some of the gross and/or unsavory things he did while addicted. Those of us who like to read about unsavory things done by other people - and I'm one of them - do get their money's worth in this memoir). But it's his writing that struck me as singular.
Told by a less talented writer, this story could have been ho-hum. But Salant writes with great clarity and economy, and seems objective as he can be in a book about himself. He does talk about writing poetry in the book, though sometimes he lied about that so his parents would send him money, so I'm not sure how much poetry he actually wrote!
But as for his prose, Salant writes as if he's been writing forever - he's that good. He's an extremely talented young writer, and thanks to that, this book wasn't the cobbled-together addiction exploitation book it very easily could have been.
Another reviewer said he (or she) would have liked more about his recovery. I think that might have been too much; I think Salant was right in leaving off where he did. And for an addict or alcoholic, there is always the chance of relapse; it's risky talking about your "recovery" when you're still in your early 20s. That's just my view, of course.
But this one's absolutely well worth reading.
However, his descent into the meth world, the life driven by the single-minded quest for the next hit, the deceit, the overwhelming paranoia, and the moral and physical decay are presented vividly. You keep thinking, why would anyone want to even start down this path?
A disturbing part of this story is the parents' enabling role in their son's ongoing addiction, especially in light of their older son's similar descent into the drug world. Their naivete and gullibility jarred me in light of their educated, middle class upbringing. Mr. Salant consistently cons them out of money and sympathy. But I wonder if as a parent I would be able to engage in the "tough love" he appears to have needed.
The primary reason that I gave this book 4 stars, and not 5, is the author's failure to discuss fully the difficulty of getting and remaining sober, when he eventually chooses to do so. In my observations, meth addiction is one of the most difficult to overcome, particularly on a long-term basis due to the permanent damage which it wreaks on one's brain. I would have liked the book to flesh out that ongoing process, so that readers don't come away with an unrealistic understanding of the complexity of getting and staying "straight."
Nevertheless, this is an interesting and vivid work of the lives and thought processes of meth additcts.
That being said, it was still entertaining if you're into that sort of topic.
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even after the dose is over everything is normal except he feels depressed.. you can go for long drives dressed up Listened to your favourite bands but nothing changes .. it's reminds me of my journey with my love .. he was sweet guy at first but then how he become a demanding arrogant man it's made me remember everything which I never forget..
Reviewed in India on January 17, 2022
even after the dose is over everything is normal except he feels depressed.. you can go for long drives dressed up Listened to your favourite bands but nothing changes .. it's reminds me of my journey with my love .. he was sweet guy at first but then how he become a demanding arrogant man it's made me remember everything which I never forget..