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TRAIN GONE: A CODA EX-JW MEMOIR Kindle Edition
Winner of the IPPY Award for Best Non-Fiction Series of 2023
Train Gone (an expression in American Sign Language meaning “you missed out”) is the memoir of a young-girl-turned-woman in search of personal freedom. Being a Child Of Deaf Adults (CODA), Rebekah grew up not only interpreting the monotony of day-to-day life but also scriptural intimidation via the Kingdom Hall of Jehovah’s Witnesses. Raised under the heavy hand of theocratic order, Rebekah rebels, is disfellowshipped, and subsequently struggles to make good choices in a new-to-her world.
Rebekah is disoriented, abused, damaged. After nine years—and a slew of reckless, amoral decisions—Rebekah returns to the Kingdom Hall, quickly realizing she’s made a grave mistake. Led by her strong intuition, she leaves the Truth again and is shunned once more. Feeling defeated and alone, Rebekah begins therapy. As pieces of her life come together, a bigger picture is unveiled and somewhere on the train tracks of her childhood, Rebekah discovers truth, acceptance, and autonomy.
Recalling sessions with her therapist, Joel, Rebekah finds herself candid and a bit jocose. This daring memoir explores the after-effects of heavy-handed cult mind control, and what one woman must do to break free. Train Gone is a unique life story where Rebekah straddles not only the everyday world and that of a doomsday cult, but also both the Deaf and hearing world, being the first ex-Jehovah’s Witness CODA to publish her story.
- LanguageEnglish
- Publication dateOctober 16, 2020
- Reading age13 - 18 years
- File size2759 KB
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"Mallory's Train Gone is a must-read for anyone in search of themselves and the truth that comes only from one's own heart."
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Rebekah is disoriented, abused, damaged. Life as a CODA (Child of Deaf Adults) raised in an altered sense of reality as a Jehovah's Witness doesn't foster contentment or independence. While tasked with interpreting for her Deaf parents, Rebekah fantasizes about a life beyond Kingdom Hall walls and succumbs to worldly temptation, pulling her away from the Truth. Banished from her childhood home at sixteen, she is unprepared to live "in the world."
After nine years—and a slew of reckless, amoral decisions—Rebekah returns to the Kingdom Hall, quickly realizing she's made a grave mistake. Led by her strong intuition, she leaves the Truth again and is shunned once more. Feeling defeated and alone, Rebekah begins therapy. As pieces of her life come together, a bigger picture is unveiled and somewhere on the train track of her childhood, Rebekah discovers truth, acceptance, and autonomy.
Recalling sessions with her therapist, Joel, Rebekah finds herself candid and a bit jocose. This daring memoir explores the aftereffects of heavy-handed cult mind control and what one woman must do to break free.
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- ASIN : B08LBTV2G1
- Publisher : Unkind Press, LLC (October 16, 2020)
- Publication date : October 16, 2020
- Language : English
- File size : 2759 KB
- Simultaneous device usage : Unlimited
- Text-to-Speech : Enabled
- Screen Reader : Supported
- Enhanced typesetting : Enabled
- X-Ray : Not Enabled
- Word Wise : Enabled
- Sticky notes : On Kindle Scribe
- Print length : 338 pages
- Best Sellers Rank: #713,964 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
- #223 in Occult Cults & Demonism
- #448 in Teen & Young Adult Biography eBooks
- #543 in Religious Cults (Books)
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About the author
Rebekah Mallory is an author, CODA (Child Of Deaf Adults), INFJ, and cult survivor—passionate about living in her truth and dedicated to helping others do the same.
When she isn't writing, she can be found reading. Her favorite authors are—first and foremost, Ray Bradbury, always Ray Bradbury. Also Octavia Butler, Daphne du Maurier, Patricia Highsmith, John Steinbeck, Shirley Jackson, and Stephen King. When she isn't reading or writing she can often be heard quoting I Love Lucy and Everybody Loves Raymond episodes.
Rebekah loves to travel and has lived in various cities across the U.S. She currently lives in the sticks of New Hampshire with her husband and two dogs, Liesel and Dexter.
To be in touch with Rebekah, visit www.rebekahmallory.com
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The author also holds nothing back. Nothing. But she does this in a way not often seen. I've read memoirs where it's obvious the author is keeping some things behind the curtain, maybe due to privacy concerns for others or out of shame, but you can feel that lack, that thinness to the rounding out of the person when they do so. I've also read memoirs where the authors bare all, but it's done in an aggressive and abrasive "in your face" kind of manner, where it's apparent they haven't worked through what they're sharing and feel the need to throw on a coat of armor and declare war on the reader with their revelations. This book, however, is different. She shares everything; she doesn't try to sugarcoat or skim over the painful and ugly parts, but she's also not flinging it in your face in the most offensive way she can. She's honest - brutally honest - and yet gentle at the same time, showcasing a beautiful humanity as we follow along with her on her journey of self-discovery.
Which leads me to the third quality of this book that sets it apart from so many others; she doesn't shy away from how hard that journey is. She doesn't dwell on the fact that she's in a better place now after spending time on how bad things were at one point, skimming over the messy, twisty, nearly soul-crushing path between those two points. As a survivor of childhood trauma, I know how important it is to see that middle bit, to know how difficult it is even once you know what you have to do, to see people have so many setbacks along the way. I think it's easier for folks to sweep the light past that part of their stories pretty quickly because it's hard not to feel embarrassed when we screw up. But everyone does screw up and pretending otherwise is dishonest in its own way; in this manner, Rebekah's book is as honest as it gets.
Lastly, her book is relatable. I have never been a Jehovah's Witness and I've never known someone personally who relied on sign language to communicate, but I related to her story anyway because it is the story of a girl and a young woman who has not been provided with the tools she needs to love herself or to make sound decisions. It is the story of someone who was abused without realizing it while it was happening, someone who is drawn to the humanity in people no matter their flaws - seeing them as whole people and not just a positive or negative subset of their personality. It is the story of someone who was unimaginably brave and strong in the way strength and bravery are in real life - messy, painful, full of self-doubt and regret, but driven forward by gritty determination.
Her story, her willingness to be vulnerable and share all of it with the world, her insistence on being true to herself, is truly awe-inspiring and can teach something to every one of us.
The little details, the pictures she paints with just the right words, created a world I felt a part of. I loved the 70's, 80's and 90's nostalgia and learning all the fascinating facts about the deaf community, ASL and the world of Jehovah's Witnesses. I have known other Witnesses and knew some of their beliefs, but Rebekah gives it all to us. She is honest, brave and fair in writing about her childhood and young adult life.
I enjoyed how she presented her story--including conversations with her therapist and recalling her experiences on her own. I love that her therapist, who reminds her of Larry David, becomes both part of her story and her champion. I smiled, laughed, cried and wanted to hug her on several occasions.
I also appreciate her vast knowledge and experience with cult mind control. Many people don't understand how badly we all yearn to be a part of something, feel important and loved, and many are drawn into organizations and situations where we give up who we are just to feel good, if only for awhile.
I respect how Rebekah doesn't sugarcoat anything in her story. I am inspired by her strong and brave heart and soul. She is a light for the darkness that insists on creeping into this world. Her story of finding inner strength, truth, hope and independence is one that everyone can relate to and should definitely read. By far, my favorite memoir. It's going to be difficult waiting for the sequel.
2021
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Train Gone: A Coda Ex-JW Memoir
by Rebekah Mallory
Train Gone.
Why, I wondered, did my middle-child offer this particular title for me to read?. After all, she’s the Catholic-raised, keen-minded ASL pro. My reading tastes lean more towards classic literature, suspense thrillers or historical fiction/non-fiction.
Even after the first dozen pages, I held doubtful. But, Mallory’s direct language and bare-naked personal honesty grabbed me by the face. “Made you look!” She first whispers then shouts.
You don’t miss out (as the title infers). You are with her in the kitchen, at the table, as she strips away church, family and community veneers.
Mallory speaks with an authenticity that only her life experience as Coda (Child of Deaf Adults) and Jehovah’s Witness can provide. I’ve learned quite a lot from reading this book. Now, I understand why ASL Interpreters’ facial expressions are so intense; their signing so energized.
Thanks to Mallory, I recognize the universality of that paralyzing anxiety that so many of us feel when faced with too many options, too many choices, too many decisions to make. Now we know why it happens. And now we know, we are not alone. Thanks to you, Rebekah!
Review 2.
What a great book! Easy to read and had me laughing and crying. Such a gifted writer with something to say! I was especially touched by the rawness of the shares in this book and the genuine vulnerability of the author. Not being of that subculture I felt I could learn something while being able to enjoy the story. We all have some part of our lives that has made us who we are today and I applaud R. Mallory for sharing so openly! So worth the read!
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What a courageous and brave woman she is! To lay bare your life warts and all, showing the misery of repeated patterns, through no fault of yours. To step into therapy knowing how painful it was going to be. I felt every nuance of her life, she being so loving and bloody accepting the rejection of a bloody cult....I could have boxed her brothers ears for hurting her so bad, except that they were trapped too.
The insight you get about how life is governed within the Jehovah’s Witness cult is something people should know and how they can seriously mess a person up.
Please put this book on your to read list.
Inside the cult (Jehovah Witnesses).
So it was no surprise that I thoroughly enjoyed her memoir outlining her experiences being raised as a Jehovah's Witness (JW) and a child of Deaf adults (CODA).
This book was downright addictive. Rebekah's no-holds-barred account of her life's journey so far (well, her life leading up to the up-coming sequel, at least!) is raw, brave and honest. Her love for her family is both admirable and heartbreaking, as her acceptance into the family is conditional upon her willingness to shed her true heart and bow down to the ever-changing, arbitrary laws of the 'Jay-Dubs'.
There were times when I would question Rebekah's choices. Reading of her decision to return to the JW prison as a free adult made me shake my head, but then I would recall the lure of my own back and forth with organised religion and I'd realise I understand her actions completely.
'Train Gone' is, at its heart, one woman's story of learning to follow her heart, no matter what's at stake. It's about the difficulty of forgiving yourself; the battle to trust your own instincts and the love of imperfect family. There are also plenty of 80s and 90s pop culture/technology references, which I always appreciate!
Highly recommended. This should be optioned for film!